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Don't Leave Me... by GambiitGiirl, literature

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Don't Leave Me...

Time shall pass, it will never stop People shall change, they always do But neither time, nor distance Will make our love fade. I don't want to go on like this Pretending I don't care anymore Because I still do. I still cry I can still remember you. As clear as if it was yesterday When you gave up, when you decided to go I fought with all my strength But still you raised your hands. We could've been forever I know this is real love Why'd you decide to give up on us? Why'd you make me let you go? You're chasing your dream I know and understand But you're also MY dream And you need to understand... I can NOT give up I can N

Fly. by GambiitGiirl, literature

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Fly.

After all that happened After all I've been through You'd think I made it You'd think I am strong But I'm not I'm still just as weak Just as fragile As I was when I was born And here I am On the edge of the 19th story It's so quiet up here So peaceful, so calm Staring down, all I see Is pain, betrayal, lies People undeserving of love There's nothing for me there Staring up, searching this sky I search for a reason to believe A reason to hope, to hold on A reason to keep fighting I fail to find this reason I fail to think with reason I see no reason to continue I just want to fly I'm free, free to be But still I'm cage

Someday. by GambiitGiirl, literature

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Someday.

It's just one of those days When you look back and say, "Damn, it doesn't have to be this way" One of those moments When you flip through the photo album And that one picture appears Of you and your siblings back in that summer Before you decided to leave And exactly that one song Comes out on the radio Reinforcing your doubts Now you realize you won't see them grow up When you come back they'll have changed So much it's hard to recognize These kids you left behind to run after a dream Have now grown up without you by their side And you feel like an idiot Still treating them like 10-year-olds When they're already 16 You fee

Paranoia. by GambiitGiirl, literature

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Paranoia.

You stand there with a blade Watching me, smiling Saying I've no wounds And that you'd never hurt me Because you're not like them You just might kill me in any moment Any given opportunity All those sweet words Those kisses and hugs Sleeping cuddled together You, holding me tight I feel your heartbeat on my cheek And still, I fear you You've got all the means to hurt me In any given opportunity I trust you won't, but... You're still standing there With a blade in your hand... Saying you won't hurt me And I believe you, but I'm scared You eased all my wounds Made me laugh, made me happy And I am falling for you I don't t

Imaginary. by GambiitGiirl, literature

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Imaginary.

My body's trapped between these four walls But they can't restrain my soul I can see the moonlight shine through these iron bars But even if I'm caught in here My imagination runs, wild and free In the darkest night of all It seems like there's no escape While I sit on this cold, hard floor Chained to this brick wall I close my eyes and fly away Into my world, into a better place Where I can lay down and relax On a stack of hay by the river And watch the clouds pass by In a beautiful baby-blue sky Enjoying nature's gifts and wonders All by myself, no one to disturb the quiet No thoughts to steal my peace of mind And I drift

Don't let me go by GambiitGiirl, literature

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Don't let me go

All I want is another kiss Another night with you inside me And our souls becoming one I swear there's nothing I fear More than another deception And I know you're not something I deserve But I also know I can be better... I'm doing my best to change Don't give up on me... I don't know if I should tell you But you love me without knowing who I am I'm torn between who I am and who I should be... Living in a constant struggle against my bad habits I carry the world on my shoulders Between my mistakes and defects I don't know if you could love me If you knew who I really am But I'm capable of any change just to have you by my si

Dear Mom by GambiitGiirl, literature

Pain. by GambiitGiirl, literature

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Pain.

Pain. No person in their right mind likes it And nobody would ask for it Or say they want if they're sane. But deep down, we all love it. Because a life without pain isn't a life It wouldn't feel real without it Pain is what makes us who we are It makes us learn, makes us stronger; Makes us want to be better. It makes us realise things' value. It helps it live in a constant fear, Fear of losing what we have, of forgetting who we are Or not knowing what is it we're fighting for. Without pain, we wouldn't feel real enough. We wouldn't know the meaning of life, For happiness can't exist without sadness; The sun can't come out if

Leave Me Alone by GambiitGiirl, literature

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Leave Me Alone

It's disturbing, destroying Controlling, consuming. Twisting and turning Taking away my sanity Leave me alone I don't want to hear it I don't need your fake support I'm sick of trying to fit in where I don't belong Damnit, I'm tired of this I'm so sick of this place I won't welcome your help I don't wanna see your face It's nothing new Well, maybe it is, to you Only when you heard me cry You realised I was about to die Thing don't work like this It isn't supposed to be this way You were supposed to notice long ago You, my dear, were supposed to care. I'm tired of being stressed I'm tired of looking for you I know I'll ne

I'm So Glad by GambiitGiirl, literature

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I'm So Glad

It's all over Finally, after so long I'm done, I let go And desperately searching for a way out I found it in you. You found me, broken You could see the pain in my eyes You read my soul You cured my blindness You, the one who dried my tears Who saw what no one else ever sees Who understood, who supported Who knew how to resucitate me You felt my suffering You heard my cry You came and fixed me You saved my life... I'm glad you found me Like this, out of the blue I'm so glad you're here I'm so glad you're mine And now that we're alone Two souls becoming one There is a love in me, raging Dying to happen.

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Don't Leave Me... by GambiitGiirl, literature

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Don't Leave Me...

Fly. by GambiitGiirl, literature

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Fly.

Someday. by GambiitGiirl, literature

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Someday.

Paranoia. by GambiitGiirl, literature

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Paranoia.

Imaginary. by GambiitGiirl, literature

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Imaginary.

Don't let me go by GambiitGiirl, literature

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Don't let me go

Dear Mom by GambiitGiirl, literature

The Bitter Routine by GambiitGiirl, literature

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The Bitter Routine

So here I am, once again Tired, overworked, sad... A pen in one hand, a cigarette in the other And a notebook on my lap Here I am, wondering What did I ever do to deserve this? What to do when all else fails? Now that you're gone again, Where do I turn? But I fear this time is different It's not like before When I knew you'll be back for sure... Now, you're gone. And I suspect you're not coming back Here I am Living my worst nightmare Hell is crawling on my skin And I'm lost in time Waiting for a sign, an answer Waiting for hope. It's consuming me I'm scared... I need you to tell me it'll be okay But you won't, not this

An Illusion by GambiitGiirl, literature

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An Illusion

Present body, absent soul I am here, but my heart is with you Separated by distance United by a feeling So pure, so strong. It heals, consoles Takes my pain away... But with time, it goes astray Haunting me night and day. Here I am, wondering What if? What could have been? All this is just a dream But now I'm wide awake Living a nightmare Holding on to you last embrace Not knowing if it's "me & you" or "us" Hoping it's love, not lust Our wildfire slowly turns to dust... You say I'm beautiful You were the first to ever say that But will you be the first for one more thing? Hold me tight, push me to the wall Kiss me with n

Utopia. by GambiitGiirl, literature

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Utopia.

Utopia. You. You mean everything to me. I see you, I want you, I need you I feel you, deep inside me I breathe you, I dream about you... And this is where I stop, crash, Hit the floor of cold, hard deception. Realizing you're just a dream My foolish, complex and utopic fantasy... And when I'm with you, I feel a glimpse of reality The reality I long for so badly But suddenly our utopia disappears. When your reality hits me in the face, Slapping happiness out of me Inserting pain in every inch of my numb body Creating holes where we used to be Leaving me alone with me, and only me. Suddenly I see you don't see me Not as I see

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Fuck this by Ryu4366, literature

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Fuck this

Fuck this, I hate you, You knew better, you still did it, But to my face, you won't admit it, And now I don't know what to do. Just take it and throw it, Chew it up, and step on it, Show it for the world to see, That everyday you fuck with me. Making me feel oh so alone, Never have I been so strong, To deal with this shit for so long. Making me feel like I was wrong, To put all my trust into you, Everything shows that I should've knew, But I decided to ignore the signs, Now everynight I start to cry, Before I get into bed, To close my eyes and say goodnight, To the gun that sleeps with me, Waiting for the time that right,

Day dreams by Ryu4366, literature

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Day dreams

I love you, I hate you, I miss you, I crave you, I can't sleep, Just day dream, About you, About me, About things, That should be, About things, That aren't right, About tomorrow, About tonight, About this battle, About this fight, About the future, About the past, About my world, That will not last, Tonight ends, There's no we, Tomorrow ends, There's no we, The only thing, Is day dreams, That ends with, Just me.

your arms by dark-emo-fairy1993, literature

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your arms

The way you say I love you Makes me melt in your arms The place I call home The place I want to be forever Guarding me from all the bad Keeping me warm in the coldest of nights Protecting me while I sleep I want you forever You call me beautiful And I can't see how When I look at myself I wonder why Why can he love this ugly broken girl? But one thing has changed through the days That broken girl inside me Has been healed and is now strong again Never to see the bad again As long as I am with you In my home sweet home That I call your arms

How to dream by Spartenas-dream, literature

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How to dream

No fancy rhymes. No complicated metaphors. No rocket science to this. Sit back, relax, go ahead and get comfortable. But don’t fall into sleep, not yet. Dim the lights, let your eyes ease. Take a deep breath, now release. Put on some music, something quiet, something happy. Eyes still open? Stare at your ceiling and think about all the things you did wrong that day. Now sigh heavily. Still not asleep? Roll on your side and look at the wall. Think about the things you did right. Smile to yourself, but don’t let your invisible friends see. Now that you are content with yourself, knowing that you can’t fix your mistakes, t

confusion by Spartenas-dream, literature

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confusion

When can we stop pretending? When can we be real? This game is never ending, I don’t know what to feel. Are we friends? Have you decided? Can we ever be anything more? When you see me, are you excited? Or am I the only one that must endure, Through this pain, through the longing, Through the nights when I have no one there… What are these feelings? They come from the heart? They come from my mind? Is this the end? Or the start?

What do you do? by Spartenas-dream, literature

Find me,Tease me,Dont leave me by Ryu4366, literature

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Find me,Tease me,Dont leave me

I am lost. I dont know what to do. What can I do. When I think I am found, All hope is thrown back into my face. All you do is tease me, Sticking out your hand, But when I reach, You pull away, laughing on the inside, But not showing it. You speak words, You know I want to hear, But saying them in a low voice, Causing me to say "what?", Then just saying nothing. You give me a flash light, So I can see your face, But your real reason, Was to show me your back, So I could watch you walk away.

please dont leave by dark-emo-fairy1993, literature

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please dont leave

Why do you look at me like that? What do you see in me? i am nothing but flesh and bones nothing exciting. At night i see you in my dreams but other nights, I get paranoid is he thinking of me? is he thinking of someone else? does he mean it when he says i love you. All these thoughts drive me insane I dont know what to do I dont want to get hurt not again not from the one i love. I am scared I am scared of the pain, I might have to face. Please dont leave I know i am nothing but i can be different for you I would do anything to be with you please just never leave me.

Same Old Story by That-one-other-dude, literature

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Same Old Story

time passes and people change but you've stayed the same i know you've been hiding it but you do feel pain and i never really did forget well at least i haven't yet you're really the only reason what name do you remember? who do you think of? i know you've been hiding it but you do feel love and i never really did forget well at least i haven't yet you're really the only reason the only reason, the only reason we didn't have a chance back then what if we tried again? and i never really did forget well at least i haven't yet and i never really did forget well at least i haven't yet you're really the only reason you're rea

A Letter to Me by Kaelynna, literature

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A Letter to Me

Dear Me, I know sometimes the days seem long and the nights even longer. I know there are times you would hide from the world. You feel the weight on your shoulders, and see the accusing glares. I'm here to tell you that it does get better. The sun does shine through the worst of our depression. It's there when you're ready to reach out and grab onto the ribbon of laughter. Don't worry about those flashbacks, honey. There was a time when you had to deal with it alone, but that isn't the case anymore. No matter where it takes you, when you come back, you'll always have a strong person who loves you for who you are...imperfections and all. H

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Dec 11, 1991
Israel
Deviant for 14 years
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I won't say too much... Only that I like writing, I have never studied any particular form of writing, I don't make things rhyme, I just spill my heart out. Don't like it? Nobody makes you read it. Also, most of my work is sad/depressive because I mostly feel inspired when I'm down.
I speak 4 languages, and I write mostly in English but here and there I can surprise with my other languages, which are Hebrew, Spanish and Portuguese.

And... That's it! =]

Current Residence: I'm kind of a stray cat...
Favourite genre of music: A little bit of everything
Favourite style of art: Literature <3 Books are the best movies I've ever seen.
Personal Quote: There's a reason I can't draw: I paint with words.

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GambiitGiirl

Jun 23, 2011

Something to think about.

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Think about this for a second. No, really THINK about this. People who know they are insane, those are the people who are actually more sane than everyone else. They learn to accept it, to deal with it, they learn what's right and what's wrong - usually the hard way. They go about fixing what's wrong, they worry about doing what's right; not only for themselves, but for those around them as well. Most of their existence involves making things right for everyone, just because they were done wrong. They're sane precisely because they know they have a problem, and they go about putting their minds together, or trying to. And believe me, they d